I am on air, he said proudly
You would rather be listening instead, I suggested
The Symmetry of Things
Erkenntnis beschreibt Buddha als Ziel seines Weges.
I am on air, he said proudly
You would rather be listening instead, I suggested
I love when I am at a place, and suddenly, the silence is so deep that you pause for a moment. Surprised.
It happened at certain places, where you could expect it, in overwhelming nature and when you are mostly alone. But today it happened at the edge of a field, when walking by.
And pausing, you hear what the silence says „You are blessed“.
Nor do I think, mine is. But there are days when I can’t find the sense in it. Another day of work, another day l would not need to repeat. Nothing learned, nor made a new experience. Another lost day.
But a bunch of lost days don’t make a lost life. At least thats what I think, even though I am waiting for the sense of it all after very weary and exhausting years. Now that my head is above water, shouldn’t something extraordinary happen?
When I’m in that mood, I ask GOD, what I should do today, what approach I should take for this day? When I do what is told, life itself gives the sense of this day.
It wasn’t enough, GOD, that you said you would always be there. I missed people.
When it was worst and I thought about what I needed most, beauty came to my mind. So I travelled to Rome, where beauty is all around, and found exactly what I needed. Beauty in myself, sometimes even seen by others.
So these other people are there to show us sometimes what we can’t see anymore or won’t accept. Easier to see and accept when others do it. Just your way again to say „I am here“, to send them my way. Thank you.
My kingdom of heaven started, when I started listening instead of shouting.
My kingdom of heaven is a unique place, the place where GOD tells me what I should do. I am myself in touch with heaven. May other persons proclaim it’s only them.
Because I tried hard. And I became silent. And I started to listen instead of asking for things.
Things to happen, things I wanted, things that GOD should do for me. I started rambling about wishes, and what I wanted to do, and to have, while GOD started to show me what really nourishes me, and I had to admit after a while that GOD was right, not me.
What I really found, walking, was God.
Unexpected, maybe. Maybe sought for.
In the end it was clear, where that inner voice was leading to. Guidance, protection, a real conversation. You just had to listen. That was, why it had to be only me.
Alone. Most people reject it. Mere convention tells us, this is something we don’t want. But honestly, is that true? Don’t we sometimes need help above everything, the people we know can provide? Aren’t we all looking for divine advice sometimes in our lives?
So why not be honest.