Being together

The most popular and intimate way of being together is sex. And as a meaning of pleasure, we are sure to experience it.

But then, when you are at it, you will see that there is a moment where you detach from your partner and start being all by yourself. And you are not alone. But you are all one.

And when pleasure peaks, you are not shouting his name, but what you say is

„Oh my GOD“.

And this is where you are.

12 holy nights

At Christmas Eve, 12 holy nights begin.

Heaven is close and you will feel it, if you try.

A lot of people are alone during these days, but don’t bother, it won’t stay like this. Heaven is closely watching out for what you need. And if you don’t drown what they are saying with your own wishes, it’s easy for them to help.

So trust. And listen instead of feeling lonely.

Consoling

When I saw that little child rocking to and fro and nobody there to comfort it, I was told she did that to comfort herself. Since then, when I see a movie and someone doing exactly this, it is always proved right. A person in a stressful situation, trying to comfort himself.

When I now see a person doing this, I try to be in charge. It doesn’t matter who and why it is. It is just a more beautiful world if we care.

Six months before

Six months before, when I woke up, there seemed to be writing on the wall opposite my bed. There stood „everything is changing from now on“.

I wasn’t afraid. Maybe I should have been. I went to my knees, and everything I had, went. No self-control, no pulling together any more. Myself, flooded in tears I had spared the years before. Now shedding them whenever I was awake and don’t seem to be able to stop.

„Try meditation“, my sister said to me one day on the phone. She might have been tired consoling me and also was right in telling me I had to do something myself.

Become aware of the thoughts in your head. Watch these thoughts without judging. They are only shreds of energy. Let them pass like clouds in the sky.

I didn’t think that would have much effect, but I tried. This was a revelation.

It took three minutes to become happier than ever in my life.

What I really found was God

What I really found, walking, was God.

Unexpected, maybe. Maybe sought for.

In the end it was clear, where that inner voice was leading to. Guidance, protection, a real conversation. You just had to listen. That was, why it had to be only me.

Alone. Most people reject it. Mere convention tells us, this is something we don’t want. But honestly, is that true? Don’t we sometimes need help above everything, the people we know can provide? Aren’t we all looking for divine advice sometimes in our lives?

So why not be honest.

This was mine

Being asked, what I intended with walking 900 km through Italy, the only thing I could answer was: I am looking for self-esteem.

Walking, alone, without a further plan than what the next stop at the end of the day might be made me vulnerable and also left me sometimes in need of help.

These were my happiest insights. That help is almost always provided by complete strangers on the way, if you ask for it. You are just lacking trust to ask at home.

And above this. Everything else was a lack in loving myself – my injuries had nothing to do with others.